In the beginning
My first assumption is that I am conscious, I am alive.
My second assumption is that life has a source.
That everything I am able to describe with my consciousness and my senses, the limited dimensions I am able to experience in space and time exist within some plane that is beyond my capability to describe or sense in its entirety. That I exist in a world of something, of matter, that exists inside a plane or a source of infinity or nothing that I cannot completely comprehend or describe but that contains everything that I can comprehend and describe. Let’s call this source infinity or nothing – concepts beyond my complete comprehension. This nothingness comprehends everything, experiences everything. It is the source of the energies we termed comprehension and experience. The space and time that I move through are dimensions completely contained in this nothingness, in this infinity.
The world around me is changing constantly, being driven to change by forces. Molecules continue to bounce off one another approaching a particular fashion of bouncing that inherently may be described in terms we are capable of pronouncing. We have observed that the world and all its components inherently move towards chaos, towards a state of less certainty. How this chaos, this uncertainty, is represented on every level of life may be expressed, and subsequently described, differently.
I change the world through action. I can move life in a direction of order and understanding or disorder and the unknown. By describing the world around me I attempt to know, to understand, to make order from what I sense and feel. I, as a human soul, inherently want to achieve a state of whole understanding, I want wholeness.
I, as a human, feel pleasure, satisfaction, and a sense of peace when I know, when I sense or feel something familiar, and when I achieve understanding. I, as a human, am driven to learn, I am driven to question the unknown and search for the answers. When I find an answer that makes sense, that is logical, or that sits well with me for whatever reason, I feel a little more complete.
If I understood everything that is, I would feel complete. But if it was possible to understand everything, life as I know it would not exist. The existence of something beyond my comprehension is essential to the reality I live in. It is inherent to being human. Think of infinity or nothing. Can I ever really imagine or understanding infinity or nothing in its entirety? Does infinity or nothing coexist in a plane with the concept “entirety”? Infinity and nothing exist in a plane with no limits in space or time, they exist in a plane potentially not limited by other dimensions that are beyond my comprehension.
My third assumption is that there exists something outside my comprehension, something that is unprovable, an energy, an essence I call “doubt”, that is essential to our reality.
I may never feel complete, but I may take action that increases the completeness I feel, increases my inner peace, my serenity, my understanding, my knowing.
We can approach absolute truth. Absolute truth is like an asymptote. We can get closer and closer and approach something that looks as close to truth as can be expressed in our dimensions, but we can never reach it. Approaching absolute truth, however, will enable me to harness a level of satisfaction and peace that is inaccessible any other way. Knowing the truth, and choosing to think and act according to the truth, can allow me to live as harmoniously as is possible with the universe.
How can I know the truth? I have to seek it. How do I seek it? By asking questions. By being openminded. By being ready to learn from everyone and every experience. By being present. By analyzing.
“Why am I here?”
“What is the source of life?”
“Why are there things that are beyond my comprehension?”
“What is my purpose?”
“What is love?”
“What feels true to me?”
“What are the forces driving change?”
“Why is everything exactly how it is?”
“What causes me pleasure and pain?”
“What is right?”
“Who am I?”
“What do I like and dislike?”
“What do I need?”
My first step to answering these questions is to look inside myself. I need to rigorously examine my soul. I need to find out with complete honesty what I am.
Only with relentless and meticulous honesty and examination can I approach absolute truth.
What are the pieces of me – what are the emotions, character traits, attributes, energies, that comprise my consciousness? What forces drive me? What is the root of all my desires? My desire for pleasure? My desire for good? My desire for meaning? My desire for fufillment? My desire for self-worth? Could my desire for self-worth, my need for self-worth be rooted in the truth that I AM WORTHY? How do I find inner peace? How do I maintain inner peace? How do I maintain balance?
“What is the meaning of balance?”
“Why is balance essential?”
My consciousness is holy. It is beyond my comprehension in its entirety. It is my connection with the creator. The closer I am to describing, understanding, knowing my consciousness, my soul, the closer I am to my truth.
My fourth assumption is that there is absolute truth.
