the lie i know is true

Ideally I want nothing.

Ideally I need no one.

I live only in this moment.

I love myself enough.

My breath perfectly sustains me.

Alive, I am provided for.

Why then do I suffer?

I am not enough.

I am lacking what I need.

I am worth nothing.

I don’t want me.

I don’t want to be alive.

No one will love me I am

Repulsive

Monstrous

Abominable.

Hopeless.