One secret to life
The following is a moment of clarity I was inspired to write down in November, it is cool to find this now, I needed to hear this.
One secret to life, one ultimate truth, is the desire and the drive to describe what we see around us, what we experience. Everything has an essence, everything is built up of specific and a perfect combination of components, of energies, of attributes, and this combination which is trapped in a physical form radiates energy waves that influence everything around it. There are so many things as humans we do instead of thinking. Of stopping and thinking. When we eat, have sex, play video games, watch tv, we give ourselves a reprieve from thinking. Thinking about the meaning of life. And it feels good. When we are able to stop, and experience, and be in the moment, the goodness and pleasure we feel, the appreciation for the experience, is the ultimate good feeling. If we can appreciate every moment of every day then we are maximizing our experience of this world. We as humans get to decide what will drive us. What will be the meaning of our lives? What we spend our time each day doing, working to create, working to achieve, working to accumulate? What types of physical things, of energy, do we want to surround ourselves with and incorporate into our environment? These things will impact our daily experience. The ultimate truth is to just be in the moment and feel serene and satisfied. We go through our lives working to find the external things we need to achieve satisfaction. Just as everything has an essence, we also have an essence. How do I learn to know myself and uncover my essence? What am I supposed to do with my life? What will provide me with enjoyment? What will maximize the love I feel for life, I feel for the moment? We can choose to be satisfied in the moment, but each person, each personality has certain activities that provide their soul with enjoyment. Personalities are different and people have to search and connect to their essence in order to really figure out what they should be doing with their time to maximize their enjoyment in life. We have the ability to create. Creating experiences, creating relationships, creating art, creating text, everything that we create and put into this world has an influence on others and an influence on ourselves. What areas and types of creations does our soul want to focus on? Why is balance important? As humans living the human experience on planet earth there are specific limitations or rules that guide our society. The more accurately we are able to describe these rules and put them in text, the more free and connected we can feel to ourselves, to our souls, and to the ultimate truth, and to our ultimate truth. The most important activity and best use of my time and most effective way to connect to the ultimate creator of this world, the one who created the perfect limits and perfect attributes in the way they are exactly expressed in our physical world, is to connect to ourselves and our drive and our pleasure, our experience. What do I want to do? There are so many things that distract us. Food. Money. Something that I think I want, something that society tells me I want. Something that other people want, or something that appears to be what other people want. And I go after that, and spend my time chasing that, but at the end of the day, I am not happy. I am not in touch with my true desires and my essence. It is important to sit and describe. Describe everything around us. Describe each activity in as much detail as possible and try to really describe the emotional experience of each step. Break each step down into smaller and smaller pieces, making the description more and more accurate. If you can describe an activity in the most accurate way, from the smallest most concentrated viewpoint, the atoms that are interacting, the essence of that activity is revealed. But also, the essence is revealed at every viewpoint, at every level of looking at a situation. Language is holy. Writing is holy. There is a reason why every religion has a book. Every religion works to describe what we do as human, and people connect to these ideas because there is a meaning. There is an ultimate truth. People want to know. Am I using my time in the way I am supposed to? It is easier to rely on someone else’s instruction manual, and there are truths written in them. But it is each person’s journey to dissect their own soul and their own instruction manual. To write and capture what it is inside them. Their thoughts. Their consciousness. The way they experience life. I suffer because I don’t know the purpose. I wake up each day and feel uncomfortable because I go to work and do extremely limited tasks for hours on end in order to make money to be able to afford experiences that I really want. I am only spending a fraction of my time doing what I really want to do, what my soul really wants to do. How do I maximize the time I spend doing what I am meant to do? By connecting with myself and being completely honest about the attributes that comprise me. What ingredients am I built of? How do I do this? By sitting and thinking. When I give myself time to think and reflect, when I give myself time to not create, I can work to dissect my truth and learn to meet myself. During this time I can think of what creation I want to make next. Then I create, and my creation impacts me. Once I make something physical, with language, with text, with colors, with art, with words, I make a source of energy that will impact me and bring me closer to my next step. Describe the human experience. There is a reason why we like to identify. Why we like to watch tv and read stories and see how other people live and react. Why do we need to eat? Isn’t it frustrating? I am hungry right now but I am trying not to eat so I can just focus on writing my description of the world. But I need to eat. Because I am hungry. So I went and got food. Olive oil and cottage cheese. That deep bitter dark stinging taste of olive oil is refreshing somehow. My purpose I think is to describe. To share my experience. My thoughts on life. When a fly comes into my room and is annoying me, am I supposed to swat it? Kill it? I’m not sure. Topics that will be discussed: Why bad things happen to good people. Everything we as humans want to know and don’t understand. Why am I so afraid of my truth. Of sharing honestly about my human experience, about what goes through my mind, about what I ahave gone through in my life. Why am I afraid of other people knowing what I have experienced, what goes through my mind? It just is. Its not good or bad. These are not things that I necessarily chose. I will be your Truman show. I will let you into my brain. I will try and be as honest as possible and reveal the human experience in the most true way. Why is honesty and truth important? When we hear something true, why do we feel relief and agree, and feel safe, and feel like we know. We all want to know the purpose of life. In that moment when we hear truth, we feel like we are getting closer. Because when we understand the purpose of life we can be free. We can be at peace. Peace = free. Understanding = free.
